5:16 am kanina..
Narinig kong nagsara ang pinto nila. Malamang umalis na siya papuntang school..
She's so near yet so far..
Infatuation.. maybe?
It's all worth it...
If someone might ask what is the scariest experience that I had.... it was the time when I was on labor with my first baby.
Way back, I talked to a few single moms and I salute their confidence and strength in facing life's not so good treatment. But, I don't have the idea that I could be one of them.
Mine is not a perfect life. Yes, I am single. No attachments, not even any heartbreaking relationships with men.
But, I got pregnant.
My crazy thoughts when I got pregnant:
1.) Shall I tell the guy/father of my baby and even if I will, is he willing to assume his responsibility as a father?
2.) How will I telll my Parents about my pregnancy?
The nine months solitary confinement was too difficult. The pressures, my uncontrollable emotions, the teary moments that I can't understand and a lot of times, I became so needy.
The saddest part was when I needed him emotionally, he was not there. This was during my entire pregnancy.
Will he be there with me and the baby after I give birth? ----One of my fears, if he won't.
What's scarier was when I first entered the labor room during my 39th week. Got no normal labor signs yet. Though I have irregular contractions already, but the pain is tolerable..got so scared with the screams of mothers there who were in labor..I asked one of the nurses if I can go out and eat (Haven't eaten my lunch at that time). And I was so thankful, she allowed me to go. I was so scared, I went to ayala. ahhahaha
Well, after all that I've been thru, I told myself why should I be scared? With all the negative talks that I 've heard from a lot of people and from my detractors ( the guy's friends), I know, I can deliver my baby, with flying colors...:D
And so i did! The pain and tears is all worth it.
IMISSMYPATPATVERYMUCH..
hello dear patpat. wake up na and text me. i miss you na eh. will i see you today? hopefully. but if not, then i'll see you tomorrow, yeah? i love you. i miss you. <3
Paranormal Activity
You wanna know what I think? I think that those who claim that Paranormal Activity isn't scary at all are just pretending to be tough, showing-off that some creepy indie film didn't scare them in the slightest bit. It is scary! But if you're tougher, as in for real, the effect is just overnight. You still think about it a bit in the morning though. And make these left-and-right head shaking movements accompanied by a little tongue clicking. (Just like saying "Oh my G, that was one helluva movie and it scared the demons out of me.")
I know, I'm talking about myself.
Pero srsly, it is creepy. And it sinks in. This is the first movie that actually had this effect on me. I normally laugh at movies with supernatural themes. But this one, nah.
So, I belong to the bandwagon now.
RESTRICTIONS (A REPOST)
I am a stubborn person. That’s what other people know about me. Don’t get near me if I am too drunk. You’ll be pissed off. Don’t whisper anything sweet into my ears, I might fall for your words. Don’t kiss me goodbye or goodnight, I might be dreaming of you with me naked. Don’t fall in love with me. I might be playing with your heart.
I love good food. That’s what I always tell my family and friends. My doctor said: Avoid eating fatty foods. Does that mean, I get to say goodbye to my ex-bf jessie LOL. Kidding. What I am trying to say is, I am heartbroken if I can’t eat Pinoy’s all time favorite: LECHON! But what can I do?
I love coffee. My coffee mates know all about my fascination for brews. Then, one day, my doctor said: #1 guinadili on your list: COFFEE! What the **LL! I asked him twice, ah no, thrice. Is he kidding me? But nah, he is damn serious.
My water: Coca-cola. But I don’t have a coca-cola body hehehe. I admit, since I became an addict of Coke, my tummy grew larger and larger everyday. Yeah. But, I can resist and live a day, or week, or months or even years without my bestfriend coke. I can hear dokie telling me…”I told you so..”
Lastly, I am damn broken. When I can no longer enjoy tagay with my friends. Or get horny after a drinking session. I guess I’ll be missing my old, drunkard self because alcohol is a no no no. I can’t anymore drink and moan. But at least, I can be sane after a nightlife with my friends. That’s all that matters.
Beers and Tequilas
it's been awhile that I haven't drink..sip...swallow..and caress my good friends beer and tequila.
Got invites from my colleagues and college friends, and oh, my drinking buddies of not too long ago...but nah. Things change. I don't know now my dosage of alcohol...but honestly, am missing it. Its effects on me..the fun when am drunk..
I am happy when you were still with me...am even happier, when I let you go..
(My officemates got so disappointed...guess they more of liked me if I am drunk)
Book :: Paolo Coelho's
I got a tattoo!
Cheer Up
I appease myself...everytime I am hurt.
Smiling. Be happy for me now. I am slowly picking up the pieces....