Entries for December, 2006
I never thought I would leave my Xanga but surprise! I did. Well, almost. After (another almost)300 days, it finally dawned to me that the I should just move on. Haha! I won't delete my Xanga though. It's just to precious to delete as of yet. Despite the fact that my entries there are sugar-coated as to how happy my life is. Here, I will be a bit bolder in expressing my ideas and opinions. Though I won't bother advertising this blog either.
This will be my new no-holds-barred diary.
The unadulterated version of my life.
{ music } Shine
{ book } My CL Handouts
{ mood } Whatever-ish
Written by kaktus at 04:44 PM.
It's official. I'm here to stay and wreak havoc to the unfortunate reader of who will get caught up in my web of tangled idiosyncrasies! :D
{ music } Ang Pinakamagaling Na Tao Sa Balat Ng Lupa
Written by kaktus at 05:11 PM.
Bombing/Blasting/Shooting the zombies' heads off in House of The Dead 4 is a great stress reliever. Yep, went to Mall of Asia yesterday just to blow my money on Timezone. I wasted a hundred bucks for that freaking game. A great technique to really enjoy the game is to imagine those grotesque looking zombies are your most-loathed people this side of the world. In my case, it's my Geom Teacher and a certain someone who is better off dead as far as I'm concerned.
I feel so damn smart by the way. I finished doing the draft outline, the preliminary outline and 7 out of 9 notecards in 2 hours. My only complaint is that, masakit pala sa kamay itong ginagawa ko. The effing notecards are supposed to be handwritten! *Gives my hand a massage.*
My mom is such a #@!*%! lately. I'm beginning to really hate her mere presence. I'm sure she thinks the same thing about me. Another beautiful reason to study in UP Los Baños. Meygahdness.
Adieu.
{ mood } apathetic
Written by kaktus at 08:58 AM.
Vacation. The most sweet-sounding word a haggard junior would ever like love to hear. Hehe. Exams are finally over and I could shamelessly say na, "MALAYA NA AKO!". The months flew by soo damn fast! I have to admit though, this has been my best/whirlwindy year so far. A lot has happened to my life and if you treat me to a nice tall cup of Peppermint Mocha, I'll gladly tell you my 2006 chronicle. Hahaha. Whut.
Like I said, we had our exams today. I've given up on Math not-so-long ago so what gives? Filipino was fine too. After that, we head to the covered court for Mass. You wouldn't believe me but I actually enjoy listening to homilies. Umm, ONLY the homilies provided by the mass presiders of our school ok? They're really quirky if you get what I mean. Haha, it takes a lot of spunk to get the 100% attention of 3000++ girls I guess.
After that, the SC had a rather corny stint with us. Ok, they may be corny but we did had a good laugh about it. After that, I head to the school entrance to get the Baked Mac delivered by my ever-wacky father. He lovingly labeled my food "Paula Katarina "Cactus" Aquino". Aww...:3 Sweet isn't it? Hihi.
Then here's the guilty part, I don't have gifts for our teachers due to the lack of time. And a lot of my close friends in high school haven't received their gifts from me. 
I feel so damn guilty. X_X Anyway, I PROMISE TO MAKE IT UP TO THEM NEXT YEAR. Sobrang half-baked pa nga gifts ko sa other people. (Hello?! Using Manila Paper as a gift wrapper?!) Sorry Pero, umm...superduperwalastikwalangkasing thank-you sa gifts. You'll never fathom my feeling of being loved today. Love you guys! 
Have a surreal vacation ayt? Ephemeral may it be, vacation is still vacation.
Meanwhile, I'm gonna park my lazy bum on the bed and read Paulo Coelho's "Eleven Minutes" which I got from Pat as an exhange gift. <---another superduperwuperperperper thankyuuu.
{ music } Kamikazee
{ mood } cheerful
Written by kaktus at 05:45 PM.
Ha! Finished reading the book na.
It's nice. Wait, nice is an understatement. It's brilliant. The lead character is a prostitute who is in search for the true meaning of love and such. She's not your usual prostitute who only has sob stories to tell nor does she wallow in poverty. You can safely say that she is a comfortable hooker. Anyway, try reading it. It's really good. Paulo Coelho is indeed a genius. { mood } content
Written by kaktus at 11:32 AM.
I deleted my previous entry. LOL. Ayos na dilemma ko eh. =D Anyway, since it's our Christmas break and I'm bored already, I'm gonna make a really long and hopefully decent entry about my life. ;p
To be honest, I'm not in the mood to celebrate the holidays. I just want to sleep. And forget all my problems. I'm not enjoying this vacation and yet I don't want to go back to school either. I just want to live like an "ermitanyo" for a while and when I believe I'm ok already, I'll go back to the real world and face all this bullshit. In less than two weeks, 2007 na. New year, new resolutions, new promises I know I won't be able to keep anyway.
I'm scared.
2007.
I'll be 17 by then. We'll be taking the college admission tests which will ultimately be the oracle of our college academic destiny. If I think Junior Year is tough, hello seniority! I can't believe time is flying by so damn fast. Nahihilo na ata ako. I need a barf bag and some Bonamin please.
So...how was my year?
I could confidently say that Junior year has been my best year so far in high school. I'm blessed to have such wonderful classmates who share with me the suffering we lovingly call Chem and Geom. I'm very much contented with my club too plus, I gained a lot of new friends. I'm thanking the high heavens right now for making us a block section. This set of classmates whom I would never have exchange for anything else. Oh, and the most quirky set of teachers by the way. Despite my negative status(es?) in their subjects, I could never bring myself to hate them entirely since I'm 99.9% to blame if I'm failing right?
Moreover, they say that 3rd year is the HARDEST year in high school. (At least in Miriam they say. =P) I dunno. I'm still alive. Not the suicidal-kind of alive ok? Or maybe it's because it's not yet 4th quarter. Erk. 4th quarter is synonymous with our freaking LIT CRIT which the seniors swore, will be the most hellish time of our lives. Bring it on. Excited na nga ako eh. Hahahaha. Just please Lord, don't send Sir Antiquera or Ms. Castillo on the day of my defense because I swear to you, they will grill my ass alive. And don't send Sir Carl Joe, my labs since it'll be my fucking demise if ever.
I hope I listened well enough about the topic on coherence and unity since I'm betting my chances that this will be a what you can call, a decent one.
Such is life. Buhay-alamang ako, ika nga ni Louise, a superfriend who knows this rollercoaster feeling is normal. At least we think it is. Or maybe it's because we're both scatterbrains and therefore, in the same wavelength. A rather defective wavelength. Hahaha!
Pag-ibig. Kasawian. Bagsakan. Matataas na grado. Di matantong kaligayahan. Gimik. Pagsisinungaling. Pag-amin. Kalokohan. Kapraningan. Pag-asa. Pagnanasa. Pagpapakasasa.
Lahat yan. Nangyari ngayong taon.
In 2007, I'll buy a better life. Better grades. Better refunds for shitty moments. So, this means I'll be a better asshole in 2 weeks time. Wahoo. Err, and I promise never to cry over a goddamn guy again. Goddesses aren't supposed to cry over such matters in the first place.
That's it.
I know. This is NOT coherent nor is it unified. But hey, at least it's in English. :D
Written by kaktus at 05:58 PM.
I'm convinced that the whole world conspired against me today. My mom asked me if I wanted to go with her in Mandaluyong to deliver some food. Ok, I have two options. Yes or No. If I choose No, I would get a preachy sermon about being an ingrate daughter that she believes I am. If I choose Yes, I'll go with her in Mandaluyong. Deliver the food. Go home. Easy. Ok. OPTION YES THEN!
I can live with this.
Piece of cake.
NOT.
Not only do we have to contend with the god-awful traffic, I bore the brunt of my mom's fury on those godforsaken jeepney drivers who I don't think, even knows the difference of the red light from the green one. Jesus H. Christ. Add to this misery is the rain. And the fact that my mom asks me to call/text/whatever this person on her cellphone. It makes the whole ordeal 10 times worse. I mean, I'm not really the texting kind of person and from on her utos-list for me, this one's what I hate doing the most. Yeah, yeah. Bratty teenager that's me. Ugh.
But it's NOT yet over.
We went to Sta. Mesa to deliver some pastries and my mom left me there since she'll be heading for Quiapo to buy some things pa. Ha. Just read a book while listening to my iPod. At least, I'm not texting/calling jillion other people. Pfft.
After that, we went to Farmer's Market in Cubao. GREAT. It's raining and we're going to a WET market. Oh God. Not that I have anything against markets but... Eh!
I'm super pissed off. I should have said NO, AYOKO SUMAMA. A few discouraging words. Big deal. Like, it still affects me? xP
Speaking of such, I had a rather chunky sermon inside the car.
God how I hate traffics.
And the rain. (I love the rain but if it's traffic and you're wearing shorts and slippers with the aircon on inside the car... Sheesh.)
And the fact that I can't say NO.
But thank God for my iPod. And Robert Fulghum. Otherwise, I'll be banging my head on the wall right now.Cursing. Muttering things I'm not supposed to mutter. Whatever.
My consolation? McNuggets Meal which I wolfed down in less than 5 minutes.
Another reason to why I don't feel the holidays. You are EXPECTED to pig-out. Like, if you don't relish that super-luscious cake your tita brought, KJ ka na. Oh hell, but you know what's the worst part in this vicious cycle? I know I'm gonna succumb to the freaking temptation! *breaks down and cries*
Howkei. Rotten day for the rotten daughter.
{ music } the depressing news
{ show } the same depressing news
Written by kaktus at 07:45 PM.
My brother. He really crossed the fucking line this time. He and our fucking cousin manage to do something I will never EVER forget. They borrowed something from me and in a span of (less than) two hours, they BRILLIANTLY MANAGED to lose that said something. They made my Christmas a whole hell lot worse goddamnit. That was 9-thousand-fucking-pesos. Were they TOO SHIT ASSHOLE DUMB TO REALIZE THAT?! Sobrang iniingatan ko yun punyeta. Tapos hihiramin nila at iwawala?! WALA NAMANG PUTANGINANG PAMBAYAD! Those two bitches deserve to fucking die right about NOW. They aren't even worthy enough to be called bastards. Goddamnit. Fuck shit stupid hoes. GRRRRRR.
Sorry for the profanity. I just can't help it. They fucking deserve it anyway. They better replace that thing of mine. Or else. OMFG. I so want to murder them right now.
Written by kaktus at 11:14 AM.
I'm not even halfway on the book and already I'm dreaming of Fantine and her no-two-front-teeth- forlorn smile, Monsiuer Madeleine's enigmatic presence and the effin' cruelty of the Thenardiers. Haha. Hafta admit this. Sir Prado is right. It's a great read. At least it'll keep me occupied throughout the Christmas break. :D
{ book } Les Miserables
Written by kaktus at 08:34 AM.
The Christmas is NEARLY here and yet I don't feel so festive about it. It wasn't this way last year. I was jolly for cripe's sake! Now... Err. Ok. I'm not supposed to be this way. Cacti aren't supposed to be this way. GODDESSES aren't supposed to be this way! O_o; Is it me or the whole world just isn't picking up too? I mean, Ok...who would blame us? Look... A lot of misfortunes happened not just to me, but also to the whole Philippines. 3(or was it four?) typhoons ravaged the country in the last four months. How worse can it get?
And also, Christmas cramming. Yes, for the last 3 days. I've been to the grocery 5 times and to the malls 3 times. I just want to rest ok? Breaks are supposed to be that way. But no, my mom just has to drag me everywhere to do our Christmas shopping. (And it takes her forever to choose from 3 different designs. o.O) Funny no? Girls are supposed to enjoy shopping but guess what? I'm the glitch in the system. Haha...
I've suddenly morphed into a Scrooge overnight.
Mom, sorry if I'm such a bitch lately. I just couldn't help it. I know I'm not supposed to act that way because I know if I'm feeling tired, mas lalo ka na.
I'll hope I mean it when I say this:
Written by kaktus at 03:39 PM.
After all the hoopla associated with Christmas Day, I'm very much content to sit back here thank you very much. At least things are... mellower. Haha. So happy to note too that the gifts I received were more than appreciated. They were loved! Thank you!
My tita also gave me a plastic bag filled with her old books. Robert Ludlum. Nicholas Sparks. Danielle Steel. ETC. *tears of joy* My room looks like the stores of Book Sale already. Hehehe.
Speaking of books, I'm on page 480-something na of Les Miserables. 750++ pages to gooo! Thank God Cosette is now with Jean Valjean. The Thenardiers were the absolute bitches.
Overall, it was a nice Christmas. Different. But..still the same. :D It's just too bad I slept through the Noche Buena in Bulacan.(Mother side) Hahaha. Pero bumawi the next day on Sta. Mesa.(father side) I made 3 freaking rounds for the desserts pare! O_O I am such a glutton. A happy happy glutton who drowned herself to death in Pana Cotta with the forever-luscious caramel sauce. And to think, I was wearing a mini-skirt yesterday. o_o;; Tsk. tsk. tsk.
Aba Paula dalaga ka na ah. No way mehn.
Nako, lagot ka sa ate mo. Wala sa paradigm nyo ang mag mini-skirt ah. Oo nga eh. Ok lang Pops. I still don't have a boyfriend. So technically, idol ko parin si Ate Cara.
Hahahahaha *laughs her head off*
Oh, and today. I fixed my room. Neat. :D
And tomorrow, what shall tomorrow bring to the overpru-... I mean, tomorrow, my parents will attend a relative's wedding while their beloved daughter here will go to... MALLLLLL OFFF ASIAAAA!!! with her bestfriend! Sakay tayo ng MRT Miko para masaya. HAHAHAHAHAHA! I feel so excited and happy! After all, I now have the money to burn baby. ;p
Diba Miko wala kang pa ring promdate? Benta. Ako rin! So, bato-batopik nalang tayo kung sino ang magtutuxedo ok? Hahaha. And better start dieting NOW. We need to outglamorize/outpretty our batchmates! Dateless or not, we'll pawn the prom sister. 
Excited nako sa gown. Hihi. :D 3-inch heels tayo HA. LABYUSOMACH!
Written by kaktus at 01:35 PM.
Yes. yes. yes. We watched a movie yesterday, "Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo". Lovett sobra. Hahahaha. It was hilarious and Julianna Palermo was so hot. Hep. Pero wala pa rin talagang tatalo kay Juday. Benta talaga eh! :D Anyhoo, I'm not gonna tell anything about the story though. Spoil yourself nalang. Treat yourself to a movie. Hihi.
My niece woke me up with her incessant incoherent shouts. Hehe. So cute! After that, my sister-in-law talk and I talked about a lot of stuff on my bed. Sobrang kaaliw. She told me that they had 6 Chinese subjects back in high school. (We don't have a diff. language class but hell, that's torture! 
Chinese Geometry you want?) O_o;; And that they always cheated because it's so damn hard daw. Also talked about friends and school in general. She's the best sister-in-law evarr mehn! We always tease her that she looks like Sandara, Mulan, heck, even Mako! My best friend's sister.
Thanks Ate Shannaxx, makes me feel less guilty. I mean, cheating isn't really a crime naman diba? What if sobrang hard talaga ng lesson? When the going gets tough, the tough goes... you know too. :D
This entry is so not fetch. No school for the past two weeks is affecting my grammar. (WEH PAULA. Sabog lang talaga ang wika mo.)
K. Bye! Hinihintay ang best friend para sunduin siya.
{ book } Les Miserables
{ show } Basketball O_o;;
{ mood } amused
Written by kaktus at 10:54 AM.
"Few years back I would have done anything to see you smile but now I just hate it… I just hate the fact that you were able to move on with your life and find happiness while I just dwelled on the past…"
{ music } Just Like Heaven by The Cure
{ mood } quixotic
Written by kaktus at 12:24 PM.
Homayfakkness. Paka-skwater muna ang post ko ha. Pobre mode. Anyway, patapos na pala ang bakasyones ko. Sige, aminin ko na. Excited nako pumasok kahit alam kong sira na ang taon ko no thanks sa mga lecheng exam results. Tang-inis! O_O Tapos, ang tanga-tanga ko pa sobra. Sukdulan ang kabobohan ng diyosang ito. I really outdid myself this time pare. Tangina. Haha. Sige, di ko nalang siya kakausapin forevarr. Mayaman naman yun eh. Kayang-kaya niya na solusyunan mga problema nya mag-isa. Hahahahaha.
Grabe. Tinatamad na excited ako. Hahaha. Ulol.
Ay ito pa idadagdag ko. Punyetang YM ito. Ilang milyong beses ko bang dapat pindutin yung lecheng 'Sign In' na yan para lang makapasok!?! Nakababanas sobra. Kukuha na ako ng bato para ipang-hampas dito sa monitor ko.
Ay joke lang pala. Edi lalo akong hindi nakagamit nito. Hanep talaga. Walang kasing pambihira. Oh siya sige, kakatok muna ulit ako sa YM. Baka sakaling pagbuksan na ako. Hahahaha.
{ music } Torpe
{ mood } Nababanas
Written by kaktus at 12:52 PM.
I'm getting fat. Haha. This is so not possible dude. I didn't pig out the holidays! Eating a whole Toblerone bar all by myself is not a crime. It was a gift for me! And the 3 trips back to the table for the desserts? It wasn't my fault! They coaxed me to EAT some more. I couldn't disappoint them could I?
And fine, since in less than 24 hours, I'll do what normal people do on err... a new year.
Resolutions. 
- I will not pig out anymore. Ever. I will fight the temptation to eat a chocolate bar after a Math Long Test. Or when I'm plainly depressed.
- I will pawn my defense.
- I will look like a decent human being on my Prom. If you know me personally, you'll get my drift.
- I will be nicer.
- Dress like a 16 year old. I'm the queen of jologsness kasi eh. I swear, I'm the only one within a 20km radius who still wears shorts na sobrang talo pa ang mismong basahan.
- No to cramming. Hep. This is HARD. I thrive on cramming. I'm the goddess of procrastination! Once a crammer, always a crammer.
- Stand up straight. Nevermind if I'm taller than the majority of guys my age. I have to convince myself that my height is an effing asset and not a liability. Now... on losing weight... Haha. The universal resolution no? Lose Weight. XP <---nasa goals ko yan :D
Goals naman!
- I will pass the UPCAT.
- The ACET.
- And the USTET.
- Hindi ko igagapang ang Physics.
- Be more sociable. Haha. I am such a hermit.
- Lose 10 pounds or more. For my height... dapat 120125 lbs. (mali pa ata inequality ko. Er.. Dapat greater than 120 but less than 125. )
- Learn Spanish. Hihi.
- Read more books. (Nangangalahati na ako sa Les Miserables! Marius X Cosette!
{ music } Luv Your Life by Silverchair
{ book } Les Miserables parin po
{ mood } 'Wala Lang'
Written by kaktus at 09:57 AM.
